Well...the start of this year has been less than fantastic for me. I mean a month spent chilling in Orange County, Cali with my family which doesn't sound too bad nor does it sound awful explaining that Februrary and March were time consumed by my husband and I moving into the most beautiful loft ever. I couldn't be happier in that respect.
In fact, I am just about the happiest girl ever except....
I haven't been writing! Yikes, how this just sneaks up without notice, day after day, little to no movement on the page, cursor blinking, ideas in your head, nothing on the page, tick, tock, that novel you've got in your head isn't becoming a reality.
Why, oh, why me?
I've been struggling with the same novel for eons, as just about anyone who knows me has stopped asking how the book is coming along. I mean I had an easier time running the NYC marathon last November, and that was with an ankle plastic-wrapped with ice bags! What's my deal?
Fear of commitment? Fear of success? Fear of failure? Yes, yes, and yes to what ever the next fear might be, too. Isn't the whole battle with writing or running marathons, for that matter, about the case for faith and belief. My new mantra is: Make a commitment, show up, and do the work.
Now that my computer is unpacked and I have my own lovely quiet office to work in, there are no excuses for not finishing my novel.
Therefore allow me to publicly, or not so publicly because I'm not sure anyone actually reads my humble little blog, to declare that I am committing myself to finish my novel by JUNE 1, 2010.
I am totally out of excuses. I am no longer lost in the forest. I'm not confused by my characters motivations or my novel's plot. I am a builder that is finishing a new house, a farmer waiting for the fruits of his labor to come to harvest, and whatever biblical or otherwise silly little thing you can up with. It's important to set goals and focus, but to also be sensitive to how you achieve those goals. More importantly, I'm setting on the path of following my bliss, enjoying my life through my work, and sharing the joy and entertainment of the written word. I am writing a new future!
I will be keeping a short update at this blog on my novel's progress toward my June 1, 2010 deadline. You can wish me luck because I'll need it, but I think a pot of coffee might be more handy!! Cheers to all those that believe in the passion to chase dreams!
One more thing...If I don't finish my novel, then the price I have to pay is this...
Yeah...I'll jump from a plane with a parachute. Skydiving is high on the list of things I really don't want to do and I should say that I won't be jumping with any military types, it would be a tandem sort of thing, but a jump, a leap of faith of the flesh and blood sort. I'd much rather make a leap of internal faith by committing to finishing the novel, so without further ado I now bow out of this blog post in order to get at the task at hand!!
